"If you wont die for it, Dont live for it"

Been a long time...

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 03:39:04 GMT

Since ive updated my LJ, Tonight I went out to Heathers birthday dinner , it was fun and good to see everyone. We had alot of good convo and catching up with everybody. Lately ive just been working like crazy, and getting everything back in order around here...Richard moved back home, hes getting a new job so he will have to ride with his dad...I LOVE having the house to myself now and its much better. But other than that, you know I was thinking tonight....that everyone jokes haha justin is old and blah blah but im kind of glad i am like I am because I have my own stuff..I have a house in my name, I own now 2 business and one could potentially make me extrmely rich and is already starting to work towards that..and I have come to realize im glad im not really involved in hxc anymore and im glad I am "grown up" because I will actually have things in life and go somewhere...thats not putting anyone else down im just saying im getting more towards what I want in life and where I want to be...........other than all that ive just been going to church, working and all.....life has certainly been very good...

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 20:09:47 GMT

Not much new as usual...pretty much once you get grown up where your out of school and all life is pretty much just the samething...anyways i went out to the show the other night, it was nice seeing everyone ..the show was good even though about 10 to many bands played..only bands I cared to see were Brain Damage, TAEA, AA, KLU..other than that I could have done without..ooo and stronghold only cause you fags are my friends lol..anyways..it was a fun night...In other news..im not working at old navy anymore..I may have a few shifts left but other than that im done...I got a new job making $11.00 an hour and I may be getting involved with a new vitamin thats coming out ..so I will be making tons of money on that..if you know anyone who is concerned about there health or if any of your parents are in any way connected with doctors or chiropractors let me know cause they may be able to make some big money. ooo and if anyone who reads this has B-Rads numer...not brad thats in jail the other brad...let me know or leave it on here or something cause I need to get a hold of him...anyways.let me know if any of you want to hangout soon.

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 03:15:14 GMT

Wow I havnt updated this thing in forever..not like anyone reads it anymore anyways but hey who cares...well lately been struggling along, just trying to work and crap and pay the bills. Nothing much major has changed in life except for the fact that my best friend moved away, which is not a major deal because he will be back in 6 months but hes really the only one I hungout with lately....im pretty sure everyone else has forgotten I existed which says alot ...I know I havnt hung out alot but I sure havnt heard from anyone asking me to hangout either with the exception of Alicia, Chass, Emma,Ashley and thats about....I sort of miss hanging out but then not really cause it shows how much you mean to your "friends" but anyways thats enough about that...the new year has been off to a rough start but hey not getting negative im still going to accomplish every goal I posted in the last post...I dont care if it kills me its going to happen...other than that nothing really new just keeping consistent and working as much as I can....its going to pay off soon I know it...

Well well well...

Wed, 28 Dec 2005 13:37:50 GMT

So much has happened this year, I cant say its been the worst year even though it has but somehow I know its all come out for the better.A few major things that have happened are:

-Moving back to Florida
-Buying my own house
-Starting my own buisness
-Me and Wife separating..yea!
-Made some new friends..that are not really around anymore.
-Have an amazing Gf...
-Nate is moving away.
-starting skating again

These are just a few of the things that I can remember. All I know is 2006 here I come so be prepared cause my goals for the year are to build my business to where I am making at least $1000.00 a week which is not a hard goal to make. To catch up all my bills, to buy a new car or truck. To finally get the divorce final. And things with the GF...well who knows what could happen but I have a really big feeling it will just get better and better..so who knows...and finally for 2006 at some point I am going to take a sweet vacation to either Hawaii, Bahamas, or England or somewhere like that.

Thats it nothing to hard to accomplish but it will all be done this year thats for sure..until next time..Good BYE!

Nothing new...

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 14:36:04 GMT

except I went to the show last night, for the first time in a while and i have to say it wasnt that great. I had fun and it was cool seeing my homeboys in embrace today...there one of the only bands that I still get stoked to see and thats just because there one of the only EDGE bands left. But it was good seeing everyone and hanging out, I like it better now because its actually cool and I get excited to see my friends because im not with them every minute of every day..but afterwards we had a pretty good skate session not as funny as last week and everyone was being gay and getting hurt and then complaining about...which is dumb because if you skate your gonna get hurt..but anyways today I woke up and I was supposed to go mow peoples yeards and do my real job but when I went in the back yard to hook up my trailor...it was real wet and now my truck is stuck..so im super pissed and unhappy and stuck @ home

Mon, 12 Dec 2005 15:27:39 GMT

Same ol same ol...I had a good weekend though, nothing really big happened I just worked and hungout with my gf but it was good times. Today I work from 12-5 and then of course im hanging with the gf but I might go skate tonight so if anyone wants to come along let me know...really ive been pretty content with everything in life, Ive had alot on my mind lately with everything thats going on, as far as my business and thinking about how bad I wish it was around march so me and richard could start banking..and ive been thinking alot about my gf and our relationship, she is possibly the greatest girl ive ever met but theres still something inside me that is scared because of what happened last time ...I mean I know its all about taking chances and I know she probaly would never turn out that way but its me inside thats giving me the problems..but it will all work out because I know its just a chance you have to take if you want to ever be happy in life you have to take chances with people..but all in all its all good and really I miss some of you guys and others I dont care because obviously we werent that good of friends anyways because some of you make no attempt to ever hangout so I really dont care...peace out time for work

Nothing new...

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 18:20:40 GMT

Havnt done that much this week really, ive just been hanging out and enjoying life. I mean in some aspects of my life things could be alot better with work and things like that but other areas are pretty amazing such as my GF, church, skating,friends...you know those things are great. But I really wish March would come around so I could start getting slammed with work and making some big time cash...im sure richard wouldnt mind that either cause as of right now we both want to get back to having nice rides and crap...i can def. feel him on missing that...but in time things will work out there isnt much to do right now and I kind of wish that I wouldnt have got in that slack ass mood after me and the wife split cause things could have been alot better but hey..crap happens and now I got to deal with it but like I said after all its not that bad and just a couple months or less and things will be back to normal and ill be bankin again in no time...thats really all I have for now..I g2g pay the electric bill...then tonight im going to my gf christmas party for her work which is the daycare for our church but it should be fun..we get to go out to eat and hangout so im excited....later people

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 04:59:46 GMT

Sooo today I met up with Nate and we skated OP Park for a good bit, then went back to his house for a while so he could get all cleaned up and then we went out to the town center. Then over to AJs to hang out with him and Drew...not much of an eventful day..this weekend was def good, I pretty much just hungout with my gf all weekend and I wish I couldve seen her tonight but we are hanging out tomorrow so its all good. Right now is just awesome because im happy with my life for once, I mean all around happy. I could really careless about petty crap im just satisfied with having someone who I spend my time with and love every second of it. Seriously this could lead to something that last forever, knowing what I know now I wish I wouldve talked to her sooner because I could have had this happen a long time ago but hey everything happens for a reason so im sure I waited until now for a reason that I will find out later. But thats all I have for now...pretty much all I will have for a while because about all I do is skate and go to church and work and hangout with her...and thats enough to make me perfectly happy!

well well well

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 08:13:44 GMT

me and the girl in my last post are official now. Im not sure what lies ahead, im sure some change but its ok because Ive never been like this before with anyone and this is exactly what ive wanted my entire life ...so all I can say is I am absolutly happy and loving life right. 1- because im getting back to where I should be as a christian, I should have never gotten away from it in the first place all I did by getting away was ruin alot of things I had going good in life. 2- I have an amazing Gf who I had a crush on forever but could never approach and bammmmm it just suddenly worked out after I started putting God first...sooo dang im happy and all I can say is if you wanna leave a comment...be supposrtive if your my true friend and if not I really dont care what you think anyways soooo boooo yaaaahhh

So..

Sat, 03 Dec 2005 06:53:00 GMT

Well I just got in from the date I had tonight and I must say that it went amazing. Actually im speechless because shes everything ive wanted. Ive known her for a while but have never been able to ask her out and then somethings happened and we started talking and she sort of approached me first and then it happened and all I can say is it would be perfectly fine with me if shes the only girl I ever talk to again. We are supposed to be going out again next week but were going to hangout again for sure before that. Its amazing how Ive been looking for this all along and the moment I start to get my life straight and back to where it should be that something like this works out.Not only is she amazing and have an awesome personality but she loves Jesus and lives for that. It also dosnt hurt that she used to be a super model and may have been on the cover of Vogue...but that is not even important its just a little bonus that she is beautiful...anyways i cant sleep cause im way to excited but thats alli have for now...

oooooooooo kkkkkkkkkkkk

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 06:46:53 GMT

today i worked from 9am -12 pm..dumbest thing ever I told them never to schedule me for just 3 hours that its not even worth my time...then I went to op skate park and skated for a couple hours, met some cool as kids. Then went home and got ready for church, church was good, theres a really amazing girl there who I have been interested in for a while but shes a good girl so I didnt want to get involved with her unless I was serious well tonight she asked me if I wanted to go to her works christmas party with her and from thatI said yes and then got the nerve to ask her out friday night..she said yes of course because im adorable..lol..anyhow so im pretty stoked on this 1-because she is a great girl who I wouldnt have to worry abotu being a lying piece of crap and 2- shes amazingly hot and has an awesome personality so we will see how it goes...anyhow tomorrow looks like it will consist of more skating...and thats all..next week will be for real work though cause me and richard gonnna do our lawncare stufff....anyhow also I may not have a cell phone before to long cause mine will be getting shut off..I will get a new one I just havnt decided what I want yet..peace

wow

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 12:57:37 GMT

what a boring week so far..yesterday I woke up and didnt do much I went to inksmith and hung out with mike and chance for about 5 hours and then met up with nate and we hungout there for a bout another hour and half...then went to op skate park to check it out, it was pretty tight. Then we went to op mall for about 20 minutes..then over to Al's to eat with jeremy, matt,thomas, heather it was pretty good..then just skated 5 points for a few...after that I hung out witht a certain girl for a little bit...then came ho9me and went to bed..now im about to go to work from 9-12 this morning and then who knows...i cant currently call out on my cell because they dont like it when you dont pay the bill but I can still accept callsand use the 2 way so if you need me you gotsta call me hoe....

Wooooooooo

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 16:27:27 GMT

So havnt updated in a couple of days, I havnt really been doing much, just hanging out with some old friends and having fun as crap. I have been working alot which is sweet cause that = money so that is most def. good. I have been hanging out with Nate again alot more which is awesome because he has been with me through alot of crap and we still are best friends ever and I love that kid to death. Other than that though ive just been laying low and chilling and enjoying life. Tonight I will hangout with some people cause were all meeting to skate @ thee imperial @ 8 so if you want to come meet up with us come on out. Ive met alot of really cool people that I work with, there fun as crap and usually always ina good mood and fun to work with so it makes my job soo much easier. Im supposed to be hanging with some of them soon outside of work so im pretty stoked on some new poeple to chill with ...anyhow...ill update more later this week unless something crucial happens...

Today..

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 04:38:52 GMT

After eating with the family which is awesome because I see all my cousins and stuff. I came home and then went out skating with Nate, Ghetto, Jeff which was pretty sweet while we were out we met up with Token and he shredded with us for a bit. I love skating so much seriously it gets my mind off stuff. Tomorrow I work from 9-6 ..its gonna be awful because of all the crazy mall sale people but its cool I will make the best out of it. Then tomorrow night im hanging with some people I havnt seen in forever so it should be fun and than saturday work from 9-6 again wooo hoo....then saturdya night maybe a date with this older girl I met..we will see who knows...peace out im tired

Happy Thanksgiving!

Thu, 24 Nov 2005 15:48:09 GMT

Things I am yhankful for:

-Family
-Friends
- Being able to work
- Health
- God's grace and mercy
- President Bush and being able to live in the best country in the entire world
- Freedom and our troops who fight for it
- A nice place to live

Those are pretty much the things that I am most thankful for right now. Hopefully everyone is not dwelling on the bad things and they are stopping and thinking about how much they have in their life that they are blessed with. I love you all and have a great day!

Tonight....

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 07:43:44 GMT

I had a great time at work, i picked up someones shift tomorrow from 3-8 so I will be back there again..sweeeeettt...and then my best friend Nate picked me up and we went and skated with mike, data..but on the way there we had a serious talk about some stuff. Alot of you dont know me, you dont know the real me anyways...theres more to me than just a hxc kid as a matter of fact im not a hxc kid,im someone who once was a hxc kid and a part of it but now I dont even consider myself that, I am just someone who somewhat still supports it. But anyways he was talking to me about how much his trip changed his life and how he is moving out there and I understand why because God is the most important thing in his life and some of you dont understand that but I do because at one time in my life before I walked out on Him, God was the most important part of my life, some of you dont even know that I used to be a christian or stopped claiming it, and the honest truth is I did it for stupid reason because I got bitter towards God for things that happened in my life that needed to happen but I just couldnt see it at the time. But the point is im not saying that immediatly things will change but little by little they will, I know alot of people who read this are younger and have no clue what im talking about and you guys are all about fuck the world and stay young and you dont need all that but the fact is at some point things are going to fade and what really matters will stand out in your life and you will have to decide. Im not saying I dont love hardcore and it hasnt helped me in alot of tremendous ways but at the same timew theres alot more to life than that and thats not always going to be there..as much as we all want it to be and as much as we all say were not going anywhere , if you would wake up and look around I mean look how much its changed in just the last 5 years.....give it 5 more and see what happens...Point being at some point we are all going to grow up and move on to different things and we dont have to stop being friends but just because someone changes or moves on if your a true friend support them in what they do and stay in touch because after all true friends love you for you and not what you wear or the music you listen to....so all in all no matter what happens stand behind your friends and support their decisions in life....

SOOOOOO

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 17:39:07 GMT

Just woke up, not really doing much of anything. Today I work from 3-8 and then I have no idea what im going to do, I may go skate tonight..I havnt been in a while.

Lately Ive remembered why it was I moved to TX in the first place, it wasnt even because of the fact of the girl it was because I hated Jacksonville so much that I just wanted out. I mean its nothing but the same old shit and drama all the time, I now can see why all the older kids dont come around anymore, I can see why they have kind of moved on in life, not saying I will do the same because I love where I am right now but I think alot of people need to realize that theres alot more to life than what they try to make out of it. I mean in a world full of oppurtunity why do people settle for second best, people always complain about things and where they are but seriously I mean America provides more oppurtunitys than any other country and theres so much you can do with your life. Not saying that it dosnt get shitty sometimes because of all people I know what can happen in life that can change everything real quick. But im talking in the aspect that some people just think that life is nothing but shows and having a lame ass job and working, but its not I mean im not all about material things but I like nice shit and I dont have a problem working to get it,but people just are content with not ever having anything to call their own...living in a cheap ass apartment or having a minimum wage job...seriously if your truly happy with that than thats what matters but from what I have seen most people arnt happy with that and they just feel that their stuck that way. This isnt directed towards anyone in particular its just me thinking this morning about alot of shit and what people really want in life and what they expect out of it......if I could leave anyone with something to think about its this..... YOU WILL NEVER GET MORE OUT OF ANYTHING THAN WHAT YOU PUT INTO IT!

WOOOHOOO

Sun, 20 Nov 2005 15:27:49 GMT

Weekend has been pretty ok, Friday Night I had orientation from 3-6 @ old navy..looks like it will be pretty sweet. Then I hung around with PJ for a bit and we ended up going and seeing WALK THE LINE and it was awesome as shit, especiallu because I actually listen to johnny cash and like his music so it was interesting to get to know about his life. Then Saturday I woke up and ate black creek with olin, and some others and then we hung around and went to the movies again but this time we seen the gayest fuckin movie alive....Harry Potter..im sorry but if you like that shit you have the damn mentality of a 10 yr old..that was the lamest shit I have ever seen in my entire life...then after that I went down to thee imperial and hungout and watched My Hostage...then I came home and went to sleep...Today im not sure what im going to do..probaly nothing, dont really feel like it or lately havnt felt like doing much of anything..but anyways im sure whatever I do I will be content and happy that im doing it...

Wow..

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 22:43:02 GMT

Alot happened today, I got the job @ Old Navy and I have orientation tomorrow from 3-6 and that is cool and all but I rode with a friend of mine who owns a carpet installation company and they just do estimates and make the sells, they have installers to go do the hard shit and he was talking to me about possibly doing that...which will make a shit load of money per week plus commission..if it wall works out well I would probaly turn the lawn care over to richard and give him my truck and buy a new car for my new job and then just let richard run the business for alot more money than what hes making now but its a big choice and alot of shit is going on but all i know is im all about the cash and im over being lazy cause thats not who I am...I used to work my ass off and thats why I have the things I have so...no more slouching around and trying to pretend life is shitty its time to get to work and make that green...

SOOO

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 07:59:37 GMT

Just got in from Rain, overall it was a pretty good night. Met a couple new people so it was all good. Today I had my interview, It went good because I have to be back there @ 11:00 tomorrow or I guess now its today for a 2nd interview, the lady said she liked my personality alot, so she told me if all goes well I will have orientation Friday and start on monday so we will see how it goes..for now im tired as fuck and I am going to bed....tomorrow night is round two, except I will be out @ Globe...oh and if anyone knows how I can make some quick cash let me know...

Cross your fingers...

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 22:58:50 GMT

Soooo monday went to the show, had some good times and of course there were only like 20 people there cause it wasnt a fuckin metal core or tuff guy show but anyways none the less it was still awesome as shit...Today I woke up and didnt do a damn thing, I watched the green mile and thats it, I am supposed to be getting ready to go to the movies right now but im not really feeling like doing anything so I doubt I will be attending, Tomorrow however I do have an interview @ 12:00 for Old Navy, im kind of excited just to have a normal joba again but at the sametime when next summer rolls around or not even summer but when it warms back up agian where I can do my business im going to stop dicking around and work alot and make that cash and build it up...but for now I got to have some cash to make it throught the next couple months so hopefully this all works out...anyways, tomorrow night I think im going to go to church< ive only been like one time in the past few months so I want to start going more often, other than that I will probaly end up out at Rain tomorrow night...if you want to chill just hit me up...

Weekend Update..

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 02:14:39 GMT

Thursday Night went out to Hatebreed,was pretty fuckin crucial...Friday night was Modern Life Is War/ With Honor..absolutly amazing...seriously what the fuck is wrong with all the kids here...like it was pretty much all out of town kids singing along to those 2 bands..its pretty damn pathetic that our town is made up of fake ass hardcore kids who support fake ass hardcore bands...when real hardcore bands come through its shitty for them cause kids here think fucking shitty ass metalcore bullshit is hxc and its not at all...thats not what its about at all and the bands arnt even part of true hardcore...but its whatever I mean you cant make people understand what its truly about and that theres more to hardcore than a fuckin breakdown...anyways off of that..

Saturday me, Jeremy, Richard workedall day getting shit ready for the party which was way worth it, tons of people showed up and lots of people got drunk and had a good time and all 3 dudes were happy as shit for there birthdays..so im glad it turnedout good...

Sunday we woke up and all went and ate breakfast..then me, jeremy,drew went adventuring in the woodsfor a long ass time then came back and made a huge ass fire and just chilled out...Now were hanging at Jesses watching family guy...probaly gonna gohome and catch up on sleep soon..everyone that wants to hangout hit me up tomorrow..imgonna be freefor a few days

SO far...

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 15:47:50 GMT

this week we have been working, our last day will be wednesday for the week. Lately in life though things have been getting alot better. After me and my ex split I sort of gave up on life, in a sense that I didnt give a shit baout anything, and the thing is none of you would understand why except maybe richard, its not the fact I miss her or even wanted her to stay because god knows that I didnt at all, but its the fact that i put so much time into something that wasnt worth a shit, but anyways now im doing pretty good, all my bills almost are caught completly up, im applying for alot of jobs which means not hanging out as much but ive come to realize there is no point in hanging out everynight and not doing shit cause it just waaste money and I get nothing accomplished so I will still be hanging out but right now my priority is ome cash...right now were leaving for work, tonight i will probaly sit at home and watch some tv again because im falling in love with that lol....i will be out wednesday night @ Rain& Soho then Thursday I might go to Hatebreed but if not im def. gonna be @ Globe and then Friday is WITH HONOR...im stoked as shit..Saturday no plans as of yet so somebody make an offer

Weekend..

Sun, 06 Nov 2005 18:25:47 GMT

was fuckin insane...it was made up of fighting, parties, football game, more fighting, more parrties and in the mix of all that was buyin new shoes a pimp ass shirt, hanging out with cute girls....fun fun fun...Tonight I guess alot of us are going to the fair around 6:00...I work this week which sucks but its more money. I might be getting an additional job, which means a lil bit less hanging out but it also means ill be banking like a mofo..so which might mean a new car...anyways thats all i have on my mind right now..i just woke up so im kind of tired still

soo soo soo..

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 23:12:20 GMT

Last night went over to christinas and hung out with everyone for a bit, lots of laughs including alicia getting beat the crap out of by jesse for calling wrestling fake and jeremy getting a dick placed on his forehaed while asleep by drew woods. Then I went out to Globe, was pretty tight, me and jimmy almost had to kill a couple asian dudes but other than that it was straight. Tonight im not sure what the hell im doing yet, so many options but im tired of just fuckin hanging out and not doing shit with the same 5 people (no offense) but that shits just not fun...so if you have any ideas or want to hangout hit me up, ill be around for a while bullshitting not doing anything ..call the cell 904-298-4040